Scans: MRI & CT

Back in April I started having pain in my legs. It felt like a pulled muscle but the pain moved around. It would be in my left leg hamstring. Then it would be in my upper quad. Then groin. Then hip, like hip bursitis. Those pains got me to pull out a cane.

Some days I could get around well. Others not so much. Some particularly painful days I'd use a walker. In the last month or so it's been the same thing in my right leg. But not in the left. And I had pain under my shoulder blade for a while.

A couple of weeks ago a burning pain just under my waist started. I felt sure that was nerve pain and wonder if it's caused by my scoliosis which makes me be crooked. Surely something is aggravated by the wonkiness of my skeleton.

My primary care doc compared my labs from this summer with ones a couple of weeks ago and sees elevated liver enzymes and infammation markers. (I'm not sure I'm using correct terminology because I usually actively avoid looking up too much info because I freak myself out!)

And to add to the weirdnesses I have double vision when I look to the far right periphery. That started a week after my second cataract surgery which was on March 31. My cataract surgeon and my regular eye doc say it's not connected with the cataract surgery. My eye doc asked to see my lab results and she's adding brain MRI to my scans.

So now I get to have scans, multiple scans. My primary care doc wants to rule out cancer recurrence so he has ordered scans. I'll have CT and MRI. I've had these before though not necessarily of the same body parts.

Right now I have CT scans set for Tuesday afternoon and MRI ones next Friday.

Yeah, I'm kind of freaked out.

I posted on Facebook asking for prayers and/or good vibes. In my previous medical challenges I have asked and my friends and family have provided a lot of that kind of support. I feel sure it helps. Maybe not for what I think I want or need. But good energy always helps. So I ask for your prayers and/or good vibes. Again.

I have a lot of practice over the years of waiting for medical procedures to be scheduled. And then for results. I've gotten good news. And I've gotten "you have cancer" news. I know results can run the gamut.

I'll spend the next days trying to open my heart to the everyday joys and beauties of this world, of my daily life. After all, that's all I ever really have, right?

The scan results will be what they will be.

I'll adjust my life then to whatever they do or don't show.

But right now it's a lovely early fall evening. My favorite season is beginning. It's the first day of one of my favorite months. I live in a very pretty part of the country. I'm fed and housed and have good health insurance. I have a wonderful "little" sister who has taken care of me in so many ways. I have love and support from many, many friends and family.

So many. So much.

Really, what more can I want?